Thursday, December 31, 2009

Goodbye 2009

I can't believe its nearly the end of 2009...this year had been one of the most challenging year, emotionally...we've been through a lot this year and we supported each other through out it...it was difficult but knowing that we have each to hang on to, we made it...Our life were put on hold this year, literally and I just couldn't believe that here we stand, proud, and able to finally move on...i know i always say and its cliche, I really don't know where will be if its not for him and i meant it, with all my heart...despite not having to celebrate the end of one of the most challenging year together, I know that you, as for me, are so relief that this is over...


As for 2010, we welcome you and hopefully it will be a better year for us...


Somehow this reminds me the song we (high school mates and I) used to sing and scream our lungs out when the going gets tough...

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Is it May 28th yet?

Besties, I'm booking u girls on this date...well ok, when the day it actually reach Malaysia...

Who's counting anymore...

I had a bad day yesterday...it started all fine...did 10 minute of yoga and then i takde mood (ok2 i got pancit) and then marathon ER season 15...then i got thirsty, open the fridge and the light from the fridge wasn't on and the fridge is not as cold as it was...crap, don't tell me the fridge is broken...i know the fridge need to be clean as the ice is so thick, i can make a whole iceman with it...i've been postponing to clean the bloody thing since before final, which is about 1 n half month ago...since then the ice grew bigger and bigger...so then i switched it off, and brought everything out...i left it about 3 hours and there were no sign the ice was melting...so i had to crushed the ice with a knife and that took literally 5hours and years of my life...i never hated ice that bad and honestly i nearly had a meltdown...

once finished it was already midnight, my arm is so sore and i think i got carpal tunnel syndrome...hahah so when i switch the fridge on, the light is still out...double crap!...there's nothing i can do at this point, so i was praying hard its just the bulb and not the whole fridge...who the hell am I gonna called in the middle of the night...so i just went to sleep...

This morning I woke up, open the fridge and the light is still out but the fridge was cold...that was a relief...

So what did i do today...at first super malas to go out and jog but manage to drag my ass out of bed and straight to oriental bay...traffic was bad as its christmas eve but there wasn't a lot people at the bay...had a 30 minutes jog and then stayed in the sun, reading a book i borrowed from the library...that felt good and i realized how much i will miss chilling in oriental bay when i leave...we go way back...there were days when i would just sit by the beach and cried missing my mum, or when i felt i couldn't go on anymore, or the fact that i feel like quitting med school...and the were days when I was so happy and all i wanted to do was eat an ice cream by the beach or even now when its the best jogging place ever...I know i'll come back...

Ok i'm hungry, lunch time....

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

2 day down, 13 more to go...

Woke up at 10.00am today...siap2 dah nearly 11am...terus drive to Spotlight and i thought since its already past peak hour, the road will be empty...boy was i wrong, traffic was bad and I had to go through the city to get to the shop...it wasn't to bad but i'm not used to drive let alone drive in a heavy traffic...manage to arrive in one piece and shop for an hour, bought some fabrics to make table clothes and tab curtains...biler nak buat who knows?...my sewing machine is still in the store...will clean the store first *note to self*



pic googled

Owh i was already wearing jogging attire so i headed straight to oriental bay...ramai giler orang, sunbathing and all....terus rindu fiance...ishh anyway manage to run 0.8x2=1.6km according to the wises map...ok2 tipu alternate jog and walk but hey its been a while since i jog...but it was really good jog...love the salty sea smell with the view kids playing in the sand and some hotties playing touch...hahaha...i'm so doing it again!



Stopover at new world to get some salads and dressings and headed home...balik terus tulis borang renew student visa and i tried calling the radiology to book a slot for an Xray...tetibe die cakap bleh jer buat in the next half an hour...so i drove there and manage to get everything done...

Head home and finished off cleaning...i still have the store to clean up...serious pancit...

till tomorrow...i have to keep myself busy or i'll miss him like crazy...


Monday, December 21, 2009

1 day down, 14 more to go....

I dreaded waking up this morning knowing he is not going to be around...I wanted to stay in the duvet as long as I could but i had errands to do...nak tak nak bangun gakla...Drove to school, the post office, public library and fishmonger...its pretty random errands...actually wanted to go to spotlight, a fabric/sewing shop but i decided to leave it for tomorrow...I went home and start cleaning...I wanted to start yoga today but after several heavy lifting, I'm pretty knackered...kire dah eksesais lah tu...

ok I'm still missing him....manage to steal some of his t-shirt and sweat shirt...its kinda good to sleep in his cloth, somehow it sooth me...can't wait for him to arrive so that i we can webcam 24/7....yes i can be that jiwang....hahaha

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Christmas hols

I'm such a cry baby...I promise myself I wouldn't cry but i did...so fiance left for home and I send him off this morning...I was weeping when he boarded and he shed a tear as well...I know its hard for him to see me sad...I remembered when we use to board plane together at the welly airport, there will always be young couple saying goodbye, in tears...and I would say to fiance "sian gf die, thank god we're always together kan"...but today I finally felt what it feels like to cry at the gate seeing your loved one go...okay I know I'm a bit dramatic, its not like we gonna be apart for long...but i just hate being apart from him...tula bile dekat asik nak merajuk, skang sedih...

Owh I've now started driving again (one of my resolution)...after several practice in palmy, i'm finally a bit confident driving alone...but it makes fiance really worried now that he is not in the country...so yesterday had a practice run in the city and that eases his mind but he won't let me drive on the motorway without him just yet...god I'm missing him again just talking about him...

Another resolution is to lose weight....I've started planning on my diet and exercise regime...i'm hoping i can stick to it...planning to lose 15kg which will put me slightly underweight... of course fiance hated the idea but he says as long as I'm happy and I don't lose the curve...hahaha...

I have always have problem with saving money...Prior to last year it was even difficult for me to spend within my budget let alone save money...fiance always come to my rescue everytime the month ends...thats when i start doing online business and last year the money i make i used to shop and i never went negative again...and for the first time I did not even ask dad for money, not even for the flight ticket home, which is a really big thing... but turning 26, my new resolution is to save money, at least $20 a week, which I've done in the past month and fiance is really proud...fiance is really good with money, both making and saving, and of course spending...Since I sucked so bad in managing my money, he manages my rent, power and internet money, he will take the money and put it in his account and make automatic payment to the account that my landlord takes from...so all is left in my personal bank account is spending money... and that have been going on for years now, tapi account tu pun bleh negative at times prior to last year..

So that's my new resolution turning 26, I'm really hoping I will meet all the resolution...

As for the 2 weeks Christmas hols, I have so many things to do and am still contemplating to
go to chc to meet my darling gf, Ami...I know i need to go and see her as this might be the last time I see her for a long time plus I miss her dearly...the problem is the cheapest ticket to chc is from 31/12-4/1 (last day of my hols), it so far away...but the good thing is I arrive welly on the same day as fiance, so we can drove home together....and later that day we need to drove to hawkes bay for GP run...confirm giler pancit...so still need to think about that....fiance ask to get earlier flight despite the cost and not to worry about the money, tapi ntahla we'll see...

Checklist of my 2 weeks plan
  1. Clean my place and do some deco
  2. Start on electives process
  3. Renew student visa and xray
  4. Study GP
  5. Plan family nz road trip
  6. Find accomodation in hawkes bay
I can't think of what else but I'm sure there's more...I need to keep myself busy or I'll miss him like crazy...

He left...........

and I'm still crying

Thursday, December 10, 2009

I'm sick and staying sick...

There is only one thing that i hate being in paeds dept...they always make me sick...i think i caught one of those kiddies viral illnesses...so now everytime night comes, i spike a fever...great! dah la siang2 busy in hospital, malam when I'm supposed to study I'll get temperature...just great!...to make thing worse i'm oncall this weekend, presentation on thursday and need to drive down straight after for assessment on friday...ANDDD...fiance going back to malaysia (yes again!) on saturday for his sister wedding, so yes I'm left alone in Welly for the Christmas hols and new year...Sad....

owh I have yet to post my new resolution...i tend to do new resolution once i'm a year older rather than every beginning of a new year...i will post it later...

Monday, December 7, 2009

Welly-brisbane-sydney-perth-kl-goldcoast-welly-palmy..hawkes bay

With the rate that i'm posting entry, I might as well just stop blogging completely...but I've been busy, I know the lame-st excuse...

Anyway I haven't write for so long because I've been putting my life on hold, literally...but now that I've passed my 5th year and I'm in my final year aka TI year, I can finally plan for the future...and NO, I didn't come home to get married and I'm not planning to get married anytime soon so please stop all the rumour that have been going around...I kawin I jemput, don't worry...

Oh ye
I'm went back to Malaysia for only 10 days and I didn't manage to see everyone...it was goo to be home and finally seeing my 2 lalings again...its been more than 6 years since the 3 of us were in the same continent...I forgot how much it was...

Didn't do much during my 10 days stay and for the first time, i wasn't so eager to eat all the Malaysian food under the sun...weird...

Anyway we stopover in GC for 3 days and 2 night...It was so awesome that we couldnt even bother to take pictures and just enjoyed our time there...plus i got sunburnt playing in the water park and i look so buruk dark...some people can pull the hitam manis look but i sure can't...

Once we reached home/welly, we had to pack for 1 month of supply to palmy...we are currently doing paeds run in Palmy...we didn't have place to stay for a the first couple days and that was stressful...but we pull it through...

Last friday, bestie's father pass away (Al-fatihah) and I've been calling her twice a day for support...and everytime i talk to her i cried with her....'yang i know its painful but u'll get through this'...so since last week i wasn't up to anything much and even on my birthday, i just couldn't celebrate and we just went out for dinner but i was just too sad the whole week...I really wish i could fly home right this instance...