Pathetic

I'm on 2 weeks annual leave but my husband is working because his leave didn't get approved (pffft gynae dept). We were planning to go back to Malaysia but oh well maybe next time. 

So here I am halfway through my leave and bored to death. I'm actually contemplating going to work and perhaps do some discharge summaries, pathethic I know. 

It feels so long ago that i have the house all to myself and all I can think is maybe I should study, again pathetic I know.  

I do not know what to do with myself!

Its been a while and a lot has happen in my life. 

I've been really busy but a lot happier with my life now and everything seems to be almost perfect. Alhamdulilah, praise to Allah for all the rezeki He has given us.

I am content with my life.

Bits and pieces

I have been drafting my Europe trip all this while…it has made progress but I’m getting bored with the project already…hahahah…but I will make sure it will follow through…

My cute very small vaio is playing up already….sign of old age is showing and I desperately need a new laptop/tab/ipad…I’m pretty much torn between a laptop or a tab-type and I have made husband’s task to research for me….hahaha…giler lazy

At the moment I can’t wait for Monday to know what husband is planning for the 1^stever anniversary…he’s been acting very suspicious the whole week, even warned me not to snoop into his laptop this whole week...he must be up to something or he’s having an affair that lasted a week….*laughing nervously* ;)

Can’t wait!

Birthday Boy

Ok my husband turns ... on the 11th and we had our mini celebration, just the 2 of us as usual...I bought his gift like 2 weeks in advanced just because I was worried it might not arrive on time...but omg I was so itching to give him over the long Easter weekend...

So I baked him a cake, the red velvet cake he loves so much (I know, so boring since I bake this almost everyweek) but I didn't dare to try and bake something new just because I was worried it will turned out a disaster (like ummi's cake, which I'm trying my best to forget)...anyway it turns out ok and I just stick on Happy birthday candles on it and voila! A decent edible cake....it was all gone in 2 days...hantu red velvet betul laki aku nie...



Husband was working on his birthday and I've made a reservation at a Japanese restaurant...it kinda look like I'm celebrating MY birthday since we're celebrating in a Japanese restaurant, but I swear it was his decision to eat Japanese since we've already had Thai and Italian that weekend, so it was either Japanese or Indian...


Anyway the reservation was at 6.00pm and husband was still not home at 5.30pm...ayo suke lambat kalau reserve...but anyway we arrive like 6.30pm, it was raining so we had an excuse...


As usual I order for him because apparently I'm good at ordering (another husband excuse for being lazy to even open the menu)...so I ordered him seafood teppanyaki set, which was like 5 different seafood course with appertizer, miso and fried rice....and I just had mixed tempura set... I also order sushi for starter and believe it or not, even after all that husband another sushi at the end....but in his defense their sushi are the best...we might come back just for sushi next time...anyway there was no picture because we were so hungry, haha...perhaps next time...


So after that we went straight home to eat the cake and finally i gave him his present...it was a kinetic watch...something I remember he talks about a few months back...


He was talking (more like ranting) about how he would love a collections of different type of watch and be able to change it everyday (ok i'm pretty much set for another 5 of his birthdays' present) and he was asking me on what makes a watch expensive? and I go "the brand, duh"... but no apparent the technologies of the watches...I won't bore you with the details...its so not worth it...:)



So happy 1st birthday as a husband, husband! and I love you to bits...maybe next year will be happy 1st birthday as a father, husband! but hang on......


that means we need to get cracking now, hmmm maybe the year after then, I've got a trip to plan....

Soo many to say, soo much time but soo malas one...

*dusting off cob web*

Despite my best effort to keep writing in this blog...i just seem to can't do it, even though I'm pretty much not that busy...its not that there's nothing to write about but I just couldn't make myself sit and write...maybe its just not my thing, it does feels like a chore to blog...which is so not the purpose....

I've been wanting to right about travel especially the Europe and grad road trip but is seems so tedious...I love reading about bloggers who blog about their trip especially those that are informative and useful for you to plan your own trip...it makes me wanna do the same...but omg so malas one...maybe I should just draft them and see where I go...

I also wanna blog about my wedding DIY which not that much pun but it would be nice to write about it and look back on it one day...I'm forgetting a lot about it now....maybe I should draft them and see where I get to...

Oh recipes, love to share recipes with others as well since god knows how much I've learned new recipes from others, maybe its time for me to share some simple 30 minutes recipes as well...

oh yes medical stuff as well, ok boring...maybe once a month post will be more than enough...hahaha

Clearly there's so many thing I can write about...maybe I'm overthinking this, I'll try to just write and not PLAN what to write...just put pen to paper...in this case not really a pen or paper...you get what I mean...


Lets just see how long will the next post will be published, shall we?

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Wordless Wednesday v.9

Its my birthday again!

This is my 100th post and coincidentally, its also on my birthday. To be honest, I totally did not remember my birthday was coming. I actually realized it earlier this week when looking at the expiry date on the milk bottle.

Bleh plak cakap kat husband "mak aih lamenye susu nie nak expire". I was completely convinced my birthday was weeks away. And of course husband being husband goes "Eleleleh buat2 x ingat pulak. Kire semlm sebut2 ______ because nak for birthday la kan"

Seriously it was an innocent request.

Anyway, I had a great birthday. Nothing extravagant. Just a simple celebration with the husband.

Coming to birthday resolution (like I usually do every year), the first on the list, same as every other year is to lose weight.

I don't think I'll ever cross this off my list. Sad but true. After getting married, I've been piling on weight like nobody business, I'm sure I'm at teh highest weight ever aaaanddd I'm not even pregnant and if I do get pregnant now, I'm going to be huge by the end of the pregnancy. Scary. Nasib baik tengah on family planning but if I do get pregnant, ayoyo matila...

Second on my list is to start saving money. A lot of our money have been spend on the wedding and I know its worth it but I have to start getting serious in saving more money. There's so many things in my mind at the moment on generating more money and saving more on expenses.

Third learn to bake more. I can cook but I can't bake. people always say that you're either good in cooking or baking and never both. Not saying that I'm a great cook but if you ask me to cook Nasi beriani, ayam masak merah, Dalca and acar, I have no problem. But if you ask me to bake as simple as chocolate cake for "people" to eat, I'll definitely mengelabah.

Fourth and the most important one is finding myself. Figuring out what I really want for my future. Whether in the current field I'm in or something completely different or maybe something in between. I know I have sorted out the relationship part of my life; ie family, children etc but I'm still uncertain about my career choice. I know I can't definitely know what the future hold but at least I want to make sure I'm happy doing what I'm doing and not to care about what others think or say if I choose different from what they want me to be.


Anyway those are my resolution for turning "late 20s". Demmit I'm already late 20s.

The big 3-0 is getting nearer and I'm hyperventilating as we speak....

Wordless Wednesday v.8

Its frustrating to know that this is it. There's nothing more to life than this.

I sound defeated. Maybe I am.

But going through life thinking, hoping and dreaming that there's more too life than this can get really exhausting.

Maybe it will get better.

Maybe it won't.

You know my name, but you don't know my story...

Cleaning the fridge and voila!

Its near end of the month, which means grocery shopping for me...this is the time where my fridge is left with near to expire food...so this is what happen when i clean my fridge...



yes pizza...it doesn't look tasty but boy its so delicious i tell you...i can eat two of these...and its actually low in calories since i used tortilla as the base...here's what you need...

1 tortilla wrap
1/4 Holland onion - slice
1/4 tomato - slice
2 tbsp tuna (I used lemon and pepper tuna)
2-3 slices of jalapeno ( i used the one in the tin)
2 tbsp tomato sauce
2 tbsp white sauce (this is optional, i had this is in the fridge just because i needed to finish the milk)
Parmesan cheese (Lots of it, haha there goes the calorie count)
Salt and pepper to season

1. Preheat the oven to 250C
2. Spread tomato sauce and white sauce evenly on the tortilla wrap and put the tortilla in the oven.
3. In the mean time, slice the onion and tomato and diced the jalapeno into small pieces.
4. Take out the tortilla and just everything (tuna, onion, tomato, jalapeno, cheese, salt and pepper) on the "pizza base"
5. Put it back in the oven and wait 5-7 minutes until the edge is all crisp
6. That's it!

*you can put anything you like as the topping or omit anything you don't like8

Husband was working last weekend and when he works weekend, usually the bread and milk will not finish by the expiry date. Its just because I usually do big brunch n sat and sun and when he's not around I just eat cereal.

Anyway there was so much milk left and I knew it will not get finish so i made white sauce instead and left it in the fridge. White sauce is really easy to make.

White sauce:
600ml milk
3 tbsp plain flour
pepper
a lil bit of cheese

1. Put all over a small-medium heat.
2. Slowly whisk (preferable non-stop) until the sauce thicken
3. That's it.

This sauce is originally recipe for lasagna but i sometimes used it to make potato bake or just simply gravy to chicken or meat roast. Actually if you put mushroom and chicken stock, it will turned into mushroom soup...

Wordless Wednesday v.7

Vampire vs werewolves

Ok I have to be honest...I have never been a fan of twilight...I saw the first movie when it first came out and I didn't like it...at that time I felt it was kind of a ridiculous vampire-human romance...

Bear in mind, I was never a fan of movie of anything not human...it wasn't Edward's fault...

But few months ago, I found cheap twilight book series online...being a book-junkie (plus I just couldn't understand what was all the rave about), I decided to give it a shot...

Boy was I wrong...I was hooked...I was giggling every few seconds sampai my husband pun interested in reading it...and then stop after few chapters and few giggles...pffft



I love Edward in the books...I find everything he does in the books is so sweet, romantic and he seems to be a very understanding boyfriend...

By saying that, I don't mean that I hate Jacob...but I prefer Edward than Jacob...just because he was the other guy who you just can't get rid off in your relationship...kinda whiny and childish...


But when I watch all the movies (after I finish all the books and keep harassing husband to dl them)...I kinda hate Edward...I find him too "understanding" and too "cool" with Bella-Jacob relationship...c'mon man, are you just gonna watch? Seriously I was annoyed...

and I love Jacob...I felt he was more adventurous, more like the "bad" boy you fell in love with...or maybe he spend more "shirtless" time in the movie than Edward...haha

(somehow I'm hearing a background voice "jangan nakal" from what seems like husband's voice)




Well anyway, I watch Breaking dawn yesterday and I like it...I don't love it just because I felt it was kinda dragging, especially the honeymoon bit...I felt i wanted to push fast forward...(jealous mode)

But I just love the wedding part, Bella's wedding dress was really pretty, with the low back lace details and she was wearing a white heels with silver embellishment, very pretty but she change to a white snickers when she dance...typical Bella....

But the wedding was pretty with all white with touch of green, it brings back memories...I was holding husband hand tight...hmm the newlywed feeling, hope it won't go away anytime soon...


Ok I'm digressing...


Bella look prettier this time around and Jacob looks great, Edward look neat and tidy (haha nampak sangat x berkenan dengan Edward)...I also love Alice new hairdo and Renesmee was really cute, especially the toddler version....

Love the dress Bella wore to her honeymoon and her hairdo when she return...she looks a lot prettier this time around...skinnier too...

Storyline wise was quite similar to the books but of course I love the book version better...they do cut a lot of stuff from the book which is understandable...they do fit in the important bit though

But the part where Bella was giving birth to Renesmee was quite graphic even for me...I did squirm a little tiny bit...:) and when she was "dead", she looks horrific...but she became prettier again once she became a vampire...somehow her vampire-self was quite similar to her wedding/honeymoon look...maybe she should have look like in the previous movies so that she will look really pretty when she become a vampire...oh well let see in part 2, how pretty she really is....

Anyway I can't wait for the part 2, just because I can't wait to see Renesmee and how cute she'll be...

Do we dream just to dream?

When do you know that you are satisfied with your life?

I wonder if you will ever feel satisfied with your life. Is there a point where you feel you are satisfied with your relationship, your career and your dream? And if there is what does it feel like?

Do you stop working on your dream, since you've reached it, and stay still? Not working towards anything and what will motivate you to go through life?

Or will you create another dream and hope to achieve it? or create another dream just to go on?

Do you dream to keep dreaming? or do you create a dream so difficult to reach that you never reach them?

Or do you dream on things that are difficult to reach, so you'll never reach it, you just work towards it either until you give up or you think you're satisfied reaching your dream.


Then again what do you do after you've reach your dream?





I just wonder...

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NYX lipgloss

I love lip gloss...I don't really like wearing lipstick but lip gloss is a must when I go out...recently I've found a good review on NYX Mega shine lipgloss...so I bought one to test it out...I bought Crystal Soda





Its a pretty pinky natural with a light of slight shimmer...I've been using it everyday, even at home...



then this is what happen...






I just couldn't resist...the colours are amazing and they are so cheap...as cheap as drugstore brand but their quality is nothing like the drugstore lip gloss...they don't have those weird chemical smell or have that very melekit texture...



I'll definitely will buy more of these and I hope it won't be discontinued anytime soon...



and I did a little more damage to 'save' on shipping cost...



*kalau x cantik gak x tahula*