Uni-Brow

There's no post at all last week, LAME! I do have a couple of draft but just didn't get manage to finish it off just yet...

I've been busy trying to live better...its so frustrating when you don't even have the time to even go for a threading and facial (my eyebrow is becoming uni-brow as I speak and my nose looks like a strawberry, full with blackhead, gross I know)...and don't get me started on my hair...

Bert's uni-brow

So I vow to take more good care of myself...I need to keep my appointment for threading at least once a month and do facial regularly as well...


I miss going to the hair saloon for weekly wash, yes i go every weekend, well that was right after graduating when there's practically nothing to do...and just spend hours with Naza every weekend doing god knows...how I miss those days, just lazying around with the girlfriend...(missing girlfriend badly mode)


Anyway, I finally manage to rearrange and reorganized my life...made an appoitment for threading, facial and massage...maybe will try to fit a hair wash/cut appointment sometime next week...bought a new yoga mat - yang lame ntah pi mane, ntah2 dah jadi alas "the boys" baiki kete kat umah (I've been putting off doing yoga because of no mat, lame excuse kan?)...also bought a pedometer and bought few ingredient to prepare my diet meal...


And you know what happen when I told my husband I'm going on a diet yet again...he said

"you know when you go on a diet, you'll buy a whole new food and it just ended up not eaten, and Iwan even told me that you've even tried dieting, bring all sort of "diet" food when you go back to "kampung" but you ended up ditching it just because you can resist Penang food, hilarious!!!"


This is what I hate when your brother is too close with the husband!


I'm so telling Anis ALL your dirty little secret, Iwan....


*evil look, plotting a revenge on the brother*

Nearly a year..

I have abandoned this blog for nearly a year for none other than the lamest but truthful reason I was so busy...But I miss blogging, just blogging the nonsense things I always do...
A lot have change since I last blogged (like duhh, its been a year for god sake).

• I'm now officially Mrs Amrin and loving most bit of it...Haha...The key is to pick your battle - find the most annoying habit of his that just bug you to the very core and start nagging while letting the rest go...AND it works but to hubby's defense I'm very extremely picky. (C'mon I colour coordinate hanging and folded clothes, sock and undergarment and I get twitches when its not at the right place). Saiko I know. I'll blog more on the life after marriage soon-nish.
• The wedding and pre wedding stuff - its been 5 months and I still haven't pick up the official wedding photo yet...I will definitely need to do an? entry on that since I DIY a lot of things in my wedding and it will be wasteful not to share it.
• I've finally graduated - yes after so many years slaving to the books. I had a great graduation with family and friends despite the so many hiccups and a near breakdown...Emo giler ok..Oh I still didn't had the chance to contact my official grad family photo yet...giler busy.
  
• The ever so awesome 2-weeks graduation road trip around South Island with the family members of 9 people and the so tiring 6-8 months of planning...Urggh bleh muntah ingat the planning bits...but hey who am I kidding I love planning and definitely can't wait to plan the next big trip...InsyaAllah June/July 2012...

Although so many things have changed this year, somehow everything is not making more sense than I thought it will be...it has become more blurry and more uncertain...student life seems so easy now...



Naah scratch that :)...my personal life during uni was hard but now, its not harder but different...okay I'm rambling and not making sense...you've got to be in my head to understand...



Anyway just leaving you to ponder this...

Is it really greener on the other side and is it really better to be someone else (eyeing the ladies with the Chanelss)?

Watching Toy story with my 4 year old bro...
Akmal: "Kakak jadi Jessie, Amal jadi Buzz Lightyear"
Moi: "Okay!" (I'm the heroin in the story, Woot woot!)

Next watching Madagscar STILL with my 4 year old bro...

Akmal: "Kakak jadi Gloria, Amal jadi Alex"
Moi: "Huh, kakak jadi Gloria sebab die girl kan? kan? kan? bukan sebab die gemuk or badak kan? kan? kan?

Great now I'm a big fat hippo...

Entering the new phase...

Alhamdullilah I finish med school, finally! but to my surprise we haven't really felt the joy and I'm actually stressed out not knowing what to do with the free time, even though there is so many things to sort out...

Packing-wise, definitely 75% done...I can't believe that I only need 5 big boxes to fit all my medical school life...well i threw out nearly 60% of it anyway, I just don't see the point of bringing junk home, nostalgic it can be...

Family is coming in 19 days and I can't wait...I definitely miss each and everyone of them...we're having 10 day grad road trip, which I have planned way before I finish school...imagine the stress of needing to graduate no matter what...worse past month for me...but hey I made it!

Wedding wise, very slow progress...well i did decide not to plan anything yet until everything else settle...so I guess that is now...as for now we only have the place booked, literally nothing else...oh wait I have bought one hantaran already...and its 5 more months, should I panic now?

Traffic jam Conversation (Filler post, eceh hari2 tulis pun nk ader filler post)

Remember when I talked about our manje-gedks scene/conversation during traffic jam yesterday...I realized that i tend to do stupid random thing during traffic jam...x kire la dgn sape2...another scene took place in a car with my big bro during traffic jam in KL...owh to tell this story you have to know that my dad used to be (as in dh retire) agriculture research officer, so basically his work is to 'stare' at leaves (and other part of plants, of course) and somehow deduce a scientific conclusion about the plant (haha, i soo hope he doesnt read my blog or confirm kene pancung)...anyway back to the topic, which is the traffic jam scene

Moi: Ishh, teruk nyer jam...

Moi: Bosan giler (setelah abis usha sumer abg2 kete sebelah)
Moi: xde bende ker bleh buat kat dalam kete nie? (Sambil mengeledah segala compartment dlm kete)
Bro: Dah jam nak wat aper lagi? Woi ko buat aper tu?
Moi: Hah aper nie? (sambil membelek2 kertas2 A4 berprintkan nama segala jenis pokok in 72 Tahoma font yg saye xleh imagine rupa bentuknyer kerana tidak pernah amik tahu)
Bro: Ayah punye la tu, untuk label pokok2 die
Moi: Duh *as in la i don't know, sape lg yang suke pokok*

Tertiba saye terjumpe kertas bertulis 'ubi gendut' dan idea tertibe menjelma...

Moi: Bro, aper kate aku tempek kertas nie kat tingkap tunjuk kat bro kat sebelah tu, mesti die hot kan kene panggil ubi gendut... (sambil gelak)
Bro: Ko jangan buat klakar qish, aku tinggal ko kat tepi jln nie kang!
Moi: (sambil buat2 x dgr) Tak pun, klu ko bengang ngan sesape, ko tempek jer kertas nie, panasss jer org tu nanti...gilerla ko mesti the only person that drive well-prepared with 'cursing' statement...kire cintakan bahasa what...ohh ubi gendut... (sambil gelak lagi)

*gelak guling2 atas lantai atau name glamer shortformnye ROFL*


Well i know its a stupid joke, perhaps you didn't even laugh..but hey, you weren't there...its you-have-to be-there kinda joke...haha...ok enuff I'm bored, hence the entry..



p/s: Harini misi mencari frozen cili padi...for some weird reason sumer asian groceries dh abis (5 total k, abis satu wellington nie saye pusing)...and its gonna be a while for the stock to arrive, I am so gonna die...like last time stock petai and durian peket (saye simpan buat tempoyak) sungguh la lame xde, skang diorg dh ader, cili lak xde (I can live without those two but not the cili padi)...baby lets tanam cili jom, but not like the potato ye sayang (adeke die campak potato dh berakar umbi tu depan umah saye and highly hoping and having faith it will grow)...owh my pumpkin!

My latest splurge....

Hmmmm....like the entry title, this is my latest splurge...Pink Sony Viao VGN-CR320E/P...:) sungguh happy!!!! One item in wish list down, many more to go (i sure need to sell my kidney to buy all those)...haha anyway for those interested in knowing the specs

+ Windows Vista Home Premium
+ Intel Core 2 Duo Processor T7250 (2.0GHZ, 2MB L2 CACHE, 800mhz FSB)
+ 2GB (1GB x 2) DDR2 667 SD RAM (4GB Maximum)
+ 250GB Sata (5400RPM)
+ DVD +- RW/ +-R/ DL/RAM
+ 14.1" WXGA TFT with XBrite Eco Technology
+ Standard Duo Size compatible, magic gate, memory stick Pro Duo + Pink Rose, Bluetooth, Wi-Fi, Memory Stick

Saye now pretty good in knowing comp/laptop specs...all thanx to fiance...well dah lame die ajar but it never stick (seriously it doesnt concern me) tp after browsing through so many laptops, skang saye sudah paham...haha but if u ask me in a few months, i'll bet u all the knowledge is gone....oh ye the best thing of this laptop is i bought it with my own money, i dont think i have spend on anything this much ever, not even the Europe trip kerana the most expensive item in one receipt would be the flight ticket which ayahanda yang bayar tiket welly-kl which is 85% of it (buy i did pay other expenditure tho)...hahah why am I emphasizing on this so bersungguh2...trying to make a point i am not a spoiled brat...;)


What else has been happening...hmmm owh remember the new sushi place...it open yesterday and sebelum osce practice ( ye saye geek pi skola blaja hari ahad) bought like 3 sushi jer cause takut tak sedap...u can pick and choose like in midland sushi in town and they have a wide variety of sushi and most of it seafood (which is great)...the sushi was actually really good that after osce i bought another 3 (byk dh habis at that time) and the bestest part is fiance like it very much...he has never been a fan of sushi but this time die ckp sedap...owh now i can seret him it everytime...and today of course la saye beli lagi...saye beli 8 trus kali nie...hahahah semalam 6 hari ni 8 esok 10 la kut...hahaha

Salmon Teriyaki, Raw Salmon, Una Cheese, Spicy Tuna

Mlm nie malas masak because kene kemas umah, esok ader inspection...plus fiance not feeling quite 'well'...so saye nk belanja butter chicken from temptation and ayam panggang from kopi/seraiheaven to make him feel better...nk takeaway jer...its more fun eating at home....

Brothers

Saye tgh wat run paeds and I'm missing that boy so much and yes also the one infront...notice how he always wave with his left...he might follow abg zul becoming a lefty tp based on the developmental milestone yg saye br belajar, kids will only establish the handedness at 3 year old...mungkin he's faster and abg zul is so happy he has a 'gang'...now ader la org gune his sudip and potato peeller for left handed (yes he made his own sudip for lefty) hahahaha

thats about it...oh ye birthday Nuha today...Happy birthday dear...ramai sungguh birthday august nie...sungguh byk tribute saye buat and there will be another one shortly...my dearest not-blood-related nephew who turns ONE...

A tribute to my dad...

Presenting my father aka papa bear...

Its my dad's birthday today...He turns 57 today and i miss him like crazy...I've always been daddy's girl all my life and i tell him almost everything to him...be it recent and latest bf to mischief behaviour in school (in case i get caught ;))... he's cool with everything as long as mama doesnt know or he'll get nag...I would consider him protective but his rule was always reasonable and at times he tests your sense of respect and responsibility....

Back during my school days, my curfew is like 7.00 and by 5.30 he'll be ringing my cell making sure i'm in the train on the way back...there is this one time, when i call him at work asking to go to sunway pyramid, which is way out of the perimeter that i'm allowed to go...(haha yes i have a geographical perimeter) and he said yes as long as I arrive home by 7pm and somehow i arrive home late, maybe half an hour late and of course la i expected yelling from him....But he didnt yell, he just made me come to my senses...I remember what his said to this day and I quote "You made me look a fool to your mum...I gave you a permission and I defended my permission to your mum because i know you'll keep your word"...Ouch

New Zealand, 1984

He is garang and i do get that garangness from him but he never hit me not even once...if i throw tantrums when i was younger, he'll always give the 'slow talk' and to my surprise it works everytime...i am so amazed on his knowledge on everything, he's my 'walking encyclopedia'...seriously he can answer you everything because he just loves to read...i mean a LOT of readings...you'll never sees him without a book in his hand...when i ask how do you know everything..."cause I read!"...It was his favourite statement...


He never wanted me to go to boarding school...but i insisted to go so he let me and i never told him until i was in 4th form that i hate and i cant stand living in a boarding school since like the second year...he was appalled when he knew it..he said he would have pulled me out of school if he knew then but it would be a waste if I left at that time...he was surprised i didn't tell him earlier but later he realized that i got his stubbornness and pride since i was the one insisted to go despite his disapproval...i just don't want to prove he was right....hahaha


He is also the parent with the 'tough' love approach, while mama will be balancing him as she was the 'soft' love (if there is such things)...even if i get like great grades, his response will always be "you're not the best tho"...hampeh tul, mama would be vise versa, she'll compliment like you are the most clever in the universe (i'm not kidding)...But despite the 'tough' love thingy that he has going on, I'll always see it in his eyes, how proud he is...precious....oh yeah i should add, now that mama is no longer here, its a bit off balance....Sad

United Kingdom, 1992

I know he hates me being here down under...every time when he sent me off at klia, he'll sing "Leaving on the jet plane"...seriously he actually sing it out loud in the KLIA carpark when he first sent me off...mak aih segan but it was precious...and he still sing it at home before i leave malaysia when he sees me dragging my bag down stairs...and there were times i stop believing in medicine and me, and he said and i quote "there2, stop saying that...i grilled you about medicine before you go and you were certain...stick to it come rain or shine and never falter my believe in you...Can't wait to go to your graduation!!"...and everytime I'm down I'll read his txt and that keeps me going...


But when my mama passed away...i can see him fall apart...I've never seen him like that ever in my life...I didn't even talk to him after 2 weeks of her passing...He just couldn't make himself talk to me and when i came home that summer he handed a piece of paper to the 3 of us.....

If I Only Knew

If I only knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
well I'm sure you'll have so many more
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything right.

There will always be another day
to say our," I love you’,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our. "Anything I can do's?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So always hold them dear.
Take time to say I'm sorry, Please forgive
me, Thank you, or its okay.
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

Love,
Dad

My adorablycannotresistsocute Lil' Brother

Presenting Azizul Akmal Zainol

Ok this entry is so overdue...my lil' bro turns 1 on 3rd of july...sedih i couldnt celebrate his so called party...i had to go back like 4 days before...well ummie made pulut kuning and kari kambing the night before his birthday and brought cakes and goodies bags to his day care on his birthday...i still haven't seen his birthday pictures which i am so impatiently waiting.

6 months old

Ok a lil' bit about him...he's already one year old but he is so lazy to try and walk...i mean really lazy ok...even crawling pun he hates...he prefers to 'army crawl' rather than picking up his butt...he can crawl, we've seen him do it but just for a few steps than he start army crawling again...and his shirts are mostly white, so u can imaginela by the end of the day how dirty the baju is..hahaha we call him 'ummie's lil adorable mop'...yes its mean but bersih ok lantai umah i hahaha...anyway he's a bit penakut as well, so he's a bit afraid to try and stand by his own...so what he tends to do is walk around the whole room using anything he can get hold of until there's nothing else to hold...

Bandung Trip

He loves hp so much...we have to sorok our hp around him or else that will be the only thing he tries to take it...tp if we sorok once he saw it, he won't cry or anything but he'll make a mission to get it as he possibly can...well salah we all gak, dari kecik we keep taking pictures with camera phone...so he is pretty fond about it la...and because of that, he loves taking picture...point any camera and he will smile...i remember this one time during abg's engagement and we were taking pictures with abg's fiancee...and there were like 10 or more cameras taking our picture and he was giggling the whole time...hahahaha so cute....



If you jage him the whole day, he'll be like really manje with you but he wont be mengade2la like other kids kan...he wont like cry for no reason and that boy can sleep thr anything...hahah sbb dr kecik ayah 'jage' him while watching tv...so if he ngantuk he can just go to sleep with the tv blasting with gunshots...hahaha...and yes he doesnt care if people dont layan him but someone needs to be in the room with or else he'll cry...

Owh die juge sangat pandai berlakon with various face expression...

Waiting for ummie to finish shopping

After his 6 months vaccination (Ok prolly this isn't berlakon)

'Whats up?!"

I think he has a lil' bit of us 3...he has my straight dark brown hair and my dagu, he has abg's overall look and he has iwan's tendency to drool (hahahah)...and out of us 3, he really loves abg zul the most...nampak jer kelibat abg zul, he'll be searching for him and if abg enters the room, he will giggle for no reason...cam kelaka jer muke abg zul tu...its just that abg zul always makes him laugh....with iwan he has this love-hate relationships...hahaha out of all iwan is always at home, picking him up at the daycare and jage him before ummie comes home...so he's pretty close with him but iwan like to tarik his telinga, nose, feet...bleh nampak his expression berubah as in saying 'tunggula aku dh besar'...hahahah precious...with me, he rarely sees me but after 6 months apart, somehow he did remember me but 2 weeks je pn spending time with him, a bit disappointing...owh well the next time i come home, he'll be running but i hope he remembers me....

Cameron Highlands

Ok since it was his birthday, so i did do some shopping..hehehe sungguh rambang mata nk pilih toy...he has very lil toys...we used to have heaps of toys but right before knowing ummie was pregnant, we wakaf everything...so aper pun xde kat umah...first i thought of buying baju...baby GAP ker, Guess kids ker..tp memikirkan he needs more toys so i hunt for it...so i found....Fisher Price Amazing animal sing along...owh sungguh comel and u can buy additional carriage to add to the train....saye sungguh suke...can't wait to send it...tp sangat la besar, adela dlm 90x30x20cm...pengsan gak byr postage nie...hehehe

Fisher Price Amazing Animals

A year old...

Akmal, hope you had a wonderful birthday and i can't wait for your next birthday....

My bro's wedding

So the weekend before my engagement was my bro wedding. I felt a bit guilty for unable to help a lot this time since i came back a day before. I did his tunang hantaran last time n when i came back the hantaran was 95% siap. Wah sungguh hebat cz it was so lawa.

Saturday 14 June 08

Our theme was green as abg has always like hijau n the female side was orange. Giler contrast. Anyway the night before i was so bz kacau-ing him. Sian die since he has to take it all in je. I knew he's waiting for a revenge je at that time (and yes he did...the night before i got engaged). Hehe. Anyway, a week before, my cousin and i made a bet with him on his numbers of lafaz. Serious jahat. Wasn't my idea tho, I was just participating. If I won, great. If not, no harm done (yeke?). Haha.

But anyway, on Saturday the akad was at 11 n as always saye siap lambat n we arrive like a few minutes b4 it starts. Ummie greeted us kat pintu masjid n she was like "masuk cepat, nasib naik ayah x marah". I smiled guilty. Once dah duduk, I saw my bro infornt the tok kadi n somehow I felt different. A lil' bit sad. Didnt know why but I tried not to make it overwhelmed me..

He did it in one lafaz, as i thot act. And of course i lost the bet. Then he went to salam my dad, ummie, the PIL, me and my bro. When I hugged him and congratulate him, my eyes watered and he saw that. He was like ''lex la babe'' and I broke into tears. I didn't know why I cried. Well I do actually, all I can think was, if only mama was here...she had missed a lot of our precious moments and she will be missing many more...well...its more the other way round...now that she's gone, every single moment of our life will no longer be shared with her.. Iguess that was enough to make teary...then my uncle (my mama's half brother) hugged the three of us (he's a big dude) and said "all that is missing...is mama". Of coursela that make me more teary kan. And he hugged me all the way out of the mosque n i was like ''ayah su nie, not helping'' and he laughed (he is famous with his evil laugh). And owh yeah photographers was taking my picture in tears like there is no tommorow ok. Ciss sure buruk gamba haku!

I went back home with my younger bro driving. Cis die pakai sunnies, cover! Haha. We all drive giler slow. First time jalan balik from kajang took that long. Dah la I was whinning before we went because I was lapa but for some weird reason I was no longer hungry when we arrive home.

Anyway we had a few hours before bertandang to the female house. Lepak2 at the back and the two of us sat with big brother sitting in the middle hugging us. Had a little brotherly talk and I broke into tears lg. Hampeh tul la diorg nie. At this moment, I wish I hd a sister to cry together... Hehe. Owh well it was sad but it is another precious moment.

Redo my makeup and off to the female house. Seeing my bro in orange was like seeing Raja Mongul. Haha x larat gelak. Tapi when both of them sat on the pelamin, they look great. Had a couple of pictures after a few drama berlaku. Adik hilang. Well die kan everyone nk dukung. So wkt nk tangkap gamba, the one who was dukung-ing him was out of sight. Haila..Drama.

Then it was mkn beradab with the pengantin n we left...

Sunday 15 June 08

Sunday was our day. By 10, we were already at the dewan. I went with slippers je dulu. Sakit kaki 4'' semlm x abis lg. Plus since br nk setup2, i couldnt bother running arround in heels. We had our own tasks (Well me and Iwan jela kan, since adik can barely walk). Haha.

Younger bro was the floor manager n the dj. Basically he runs all the infrastructure stuff. As for me, everything else. From briefing the girls giving the several different types of doorgift to how should the flowergirls walk. At the same time making sure food are always filled up and also be present at the front with ayah n ummie to greet families and friends. So i'm basically running to n fro. And by that time I had to change into heels. Takkan nqk wear slippers. But i did think evrything thr. Mule2 i was wearing 5'' stilletos tp looking at the distance from front dewan to the dewan, I change to a 3''. Nasib baik a brought like 4 shoes. Wise move.

There were so many familliar faces that came that I havent seen for so long and most of them remeember me and were wanting to talk to me just because a lot of them haven't seen me for years after my mum's passing. And it is heart breaking when people keep saying ''you really look liked her...''. and some of them became teary remembering her, which was harder for me. But in a way I'm glad that I carry a little bit of her in myself everyday...

Eveything went smoothly. My younger make sure everything went smooth. Haila he's a keeper sungguh. From finding the car for the pengantin, kompang, silat, mc, dj and songs choices. And the next week, went all out for his sister pulak. I'm blessed...

We were so bz that we didn't actually see the merenjis, potong kek and etc. I did not even eat until 5pm pun. My parents were bz in front greeting visitors but I did manage to go and see my bro 5 minutes before bersanding. He look great in green and his wife look so gorgeous. Even though we missed most of the ceremony but bro i really hope you had a great wedding...

*more pictures will be added later, once i got the official paid photos